Today, I let doubt come into my mind.  With it’s slinky, sneaky manner, I didn’t even see it coming. Gradually, I felt heavy, anxious, burdened and restless.  Oh so restless.  By the time I recognized it, I had allowed nearly a full day to go by with a string of negative thoughts playing over and over again in my head.  With it’s subtle style of imposition, I let doubt exploit my insecurities and tell me, “This road is much too long for you to travel.  The obstacles are just too great for you to overcome.  Only fools continue to believe in hope.”  Doubt had done it’s job perfectly and I was left feeling quite discouraged.

Couldn’t I just reason with doubt?  Surely, my mind must be more powerful than to except these lies as fact.  After all, progress has been made.  Even my Instagram pics can prove that!  Doubt has a way of ignoring the evidence though and persuades me to mistrust my success.  “What if this is as good as it will get for you?” It asks.  Tearfully, I retreated to my room, buy soma online alone.

I began to fix my thoughts on the truth, the good, the lovely, and the milestones along my journey thus far:

I was once declining in health, and now have a proper diagnosis.

I became bedridden, but now I can walk short distances.

I was isolated for many months but have since enjoyed a few, special moments of quality time with friends and family.

These are but a few of the wondrous and glorious victories I have celebrated during my long battle with Lyme Disease. These are the triumphs upon which I must continue to dwell. Peace is found here.

© Zach Dischner

© Zach Dischner

Goodnight and goodbye doubt.  I am grateful that tomorrow will once again bring about an opportunity for new joy and hope in my life.  I am choosing to live with this mindset.




4 thoughts on “DOUBT CREPT IN TODAY

  1. Hey, Jenny! Thank you for writing this post. Thank you for always being real. Your life and your words are an encouragement to so many people in so many ways. Praying that God will continue to show you how to keep fighting back with His truth until peace reigns in your heart and in your mind. Let us never give up hope! Love you <3

    • Thank you so much Terry! I appreciate the prayers and will continue to need them as I walk through what seems to be the battle that never ends. Love you too!

    • Haha! Thanks for making me laugh! I do think doubt is normal, but it has such a funny way of sneaking up on you that you don’t even know it’s there. Sometimes I feel like I should be past the part of doubting, but I know that’s not realistic. BTW, I have been tooting my own horn for a good 24 hours now about my parallel parking!

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